like auntie, like niece.

(disclaimer. sorry these pictures are going to be random sizes and not all the same. i know. it bothers me, too. we will get through it together.)


so. i’ve been noticing that my niece, izzy, has been making this face, in every picture lately.


funny, right? i know. she’s a HAM! and i always think, ‘where does she come up with this stuff??” because it’s been my observation that kids at this age are like sponges.

but then i started realizing this:


and these.


and oh, wait for it….



you. are. welcome.


my sister, mary, threw me an amazing bridal shower this weekend at la patisserie, complete with lavender macarons and champagne, yum! here are a few pics. :)

my amazing bridesmaids!

the entire bridal party! so glad everyone could come!

i felt like i had been built into a crate and barrel fort!

serving ware! yesssss.

amy made me a picture book of the day we found my dress. :)

insert clever title here.

i feel like i’ve been hit with negativity from all sides this week. on monday, it seemed that everyone was complaining about either having to work on MLK or dreading going back to work on tuesday after having an awesome 3-day weekend. on tuesday, i saw so many “obligatory christian” status updates about obama taking office, and how we needed to pray for obama and unify ourselves as a country.

[now, many of the status updates , albeit facebook or twitter, were heartfelt and sincere, but many were not. or maybe it’s me that’s the cynic? it’s probably me.]

all of this has only added to the gray cloud that has formed over my head. i have a lot of friends who are hurting deeply right now, and it has just absolutely worn down my soul. one friend is on the verge of losing her only family member to a long battle of cancer, and two other friends are just absolutely being attacked and haunted by their past.

in a way i’m glad it’s not up to me to be in charge of people and change them, but i am thankful that i can be used to encourage and uplift where i can.

so enough of the funk! i continue to pray and be there for my friends, but, it’s important to remember the good things, too, so here are some great things that have happened in the past two weeks.

1. lisa came to visit! and it was fabulous. as mentioned before, we at about 15 tacos, collectively (ok maybe that’s an overestimation, but maybe it’s not).

2. hanging with the vanhorns. ALWAYS a good time! they are all so encouraging in their own way, and i swear i’m not writing this just because i know you guys read my blog. :) hannah’s birthday was awesome and working in the nursery sunday night was awesome as well, and i am just feel so loved when i am with you guys!

3. i love my job. i’m was happy to be working on monday because i absolutely adore the people i get to work with. we have a great time together and even took time out on tuesday to watch the inauguration festivities as a ‘family’ and then enjoyed some pizza and cupcakes together. with all the dogs, of course.

4. i am honored to be a part of a group that has started meeting on monday nights to study james, from the bible, inductively. i was so nervous, because inductive is a tedious process that can be very trying, but they all just soaked it up and loved it. it’s so fun to share something with someone else (let alone THREE other someone else’s!) that has impacted your life greatly, and see it also working for them. i can’t wait until next week.

i’ve learned alot these past few weeks, too. i’ve come to a deeper understanding and appreciation for true friends, i’ve learned patience, and i’ve learned that sometimes you have to sit back quietly and wait.

well my eyelids are getting heavy. i must go sleep and prepare for a 5:30am run. ugh. UGH. goodnight, bloggerland!

resolutions, shmesolutions.

well, it’s that time of year again. you know…for a new one. oh, 2009…what’s in store for your heart and your soul? whatever will you bring to my friends and family? only time will tell.

well, friends, i have a statement/confession/testimony/declaration/announcement: i do not believe in making new years resolutions.

now, i’m all for honoring the natural cycles and seasons in our life, if you will. for example, traditonal chinese medicine teaches that the winter is a time to prepare for spring. i’ve had a bug this past week, to clean out my closet to get organized, and now have 6 bags of clothes, shoes and household items (plus a chair and a tv) to be carted off to goodwill. so i think for some, new years, is a natural time to rethink and review. rock solid. but let’s think bigger.

jacob said something, yesterday, that sort of confirmed it all in a nice, concise, phrase, “are you making a resolution because of a conviction or out of guilt and shame? because one will free you and one will enslave you.”

woo! that’s a truck load. but it’s truth. so many years and so many new years resolutions have been made out of guilt and shame and peer pressure (that’s right, kids!). these decelerations of change and transformation, almost always end in brokenness leaving your heart hurting more than when it began. i have believed the lie, before, that, ‘well, if guilt is getting me to do this than at least that’s something.’ no! no, it’s not!

so i propose this, instead, blogging world. how about we nix the new years resolutions and, instead, listen to our hearts every day. we can’t wait on a new year to wipe away the past, to leave something behind…we have to decide today TODAY!, that we are closing the door and opening a new one…or that we are standing still. either way, own it! and listen to the call in your life year round.

next monday, i will be sitting down with three other women, to talk about resolutions. ha! i feel like for our group, however, it just has happened to fall during the new year celebration. or at least that’s where my heart is. these ladies and i walk life together, and i look forward to the resolutions we will proclaim in the months to come.

i’ll let you know how it goes.

until next time, you should check out this thing called wine for Jesus…it’s flippin sweet.